Knowing Thyself

For as long as I can remember, figuring out myself on the deepest levels has been my sole goal, getting to deeper and deeper levels into my own consciousness, below superficial levels of thought, below the opinions, below the personality, below the relationships with others, into the deepest realms of Self-Realization. The deeper I get, the more I am tuned into something so magical, so indescribable, this perfect harmony with everything, everyone around me. The highest virtues start to manifest in my behavior, the most manifest tolerance, open-mindedness, kindness, lack of predatory-ness, neediness. To me, I see this is in all of the World's religions, as well as the heretical ones, the spirituality that is not orthodox, and even in the most Orthodox denominations. It also transcends revolutionariness, and establishment-ness. In Hinduism, lately I've been inspired by a certain way of conceptualizing it, that is helping me realize it directly, even through though many other philosophies, religions it is possible to Realize it. What is real is eternal, it is composed of Eternal Being, Infinite Consciousness, and Supreme Bliss. Through some mistakes, I suffer, I'm trapped in endless cycles of repetitive thoughts, addictive behaviors, lack of freedom, selfishness. I'm finding that there are inspiring people in different endeavors, that have attained this deepest of Self-Realizations, sometimes they use different words, but it comes down to knowing thyself. Christian Saints including Jesus expressed it using certain words. "the Kingdom of Heaven is within you". Feminist warriors have dived deep into themselves, and through realizing themselves transformed the world. Creative people, artists, and writers, and musicians, have had great strokes of genius